Laughing at myself this morning as I sit drinking my coffee.
I’d reached out to a fellow blogger yesterday to compliment him on the work he is doing. One particular post really moved me, and inspired me to reach out to him. I acknowledged his beautiful work, told him I’d love to talk more as I felt our work was aligned, and that I felt we shared much in common.
I came home from a wedding last night to an abrupt and dismissive email from him (my interpretation) and sat with my mouth agape staring at the screen for a few moments before crafting my response ( which would have been immensely entertaining as it took me about 20 minutes lots of writing from a very reactive place and then erasing only to re-write and delete a few times before sending an equally short and dismissive response)
I’d enjoyed the wine at the wedding… I’d enjoyed dancing all night, and it was nearly midnight when my response was sent.
Needless to say my “response” was indeed more of a reaction + alcohol = S.T.U.P.I.D.
Thank god I had the sense to keep it brief.
I look at the email exchange again this morning still feel the sting of his written words.
Here was the exchange:
Hi (his name),
Moved by your blog. I found you thorough the googleness while looking into …. ( cut this part out so as to maintain his privacy because if you searched on it he’d be first on search engine results)
I’d really like to speak with you. I shepherd a project for women called The Revelation Project.
I think we have a lot in common, and I’d really like to know more about what you do.
Can you let me know if there might be a good time to speak?
too busy to just chat. must be exceedingly relevant to my work. send me more info
Hi (his name) ,
I’d rather actually have been ignored than to have received this- for what it’s worth.
So… as I sit here I examine:
- How did such a quick exchange make such a big impact on me and leave me feeling hurt and pissed off, and self-righteous?
- Why did this provoke such a reaction in me? What did I make his response to my email mean? Why would I have preferred to be ignored than to have him respond in that way?
- My gratitude for the many lessons that are revealing themselves here.
I’d love to hear your interpretation of the exchange… and what you think is being revealed here.